November 27, 2011

Good things that happened this "vacation"

• I saw my grandparents and uncles.
• My ipod got fixed.
• I got a new pair of shoes...
• I made some kick ass mashed potatoes.

Bad things that happened:

• My whole nuclear family.
• I didn't do any homework.
• The end of the vacation was really, really shitty. I should be back in Boston right now, but instead I'm here. 
• My mother and my grandmother had one of their traditional holiday blowouts ending in tears and a particularly festive, "I PROBABLY WON'T EVEN COME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!"
• My sister Megan, in general is a colossal bitch and I can just SEE how much holidays are going to suck in the future. 
• I think I want to be a lawyer or a doctor. I would be completely unsatisfied being anything else.
• My ipod is almost dead and I don't have a charger #firstworldproblems.
• The first part of the vacation was awesome, but today was a shitshow and that ruined everything for me.

I'm angry. I'm allowed to be angry. Anger is not some taboo emotion one should tuck back inside to his or her being. No, you should allow yourself to be angry. Don't let it overtake you because it will do more harm than good, but I am allowed to be angry. I'm allowed to be angry at Carolyn for thinking it's okay to be rude, nasty, mean and judgmental one day and nice, sweet and innocent the next. I'm allowed to be angry with "Carla" for saying that I have "service issues" FOUR months after the fact. That really irritates me. Okay, if I had service issues back in February this is what you do:

• In the month that you notice these "issues" you take me aside, and you explain to me what they are and what I can do to fix them.

You do not:

• Switch my position at work without consulting me first, and tell me four months later that I have "service issues," without delving deeper into the details of what those issues are.

These are facts, not opinions. I am so lucky though, that I have the opportunity to attend NEU. I can feel myself shining there already. I will work as hard as I can to achieve my dream of law school. I will get there. I may have to deal with a few jerks ("Carla") along the way, but I will get there.

My mom isn't speaking to me because I slammed the door today when she couldn't find her library card. I'm so sick of her being a baby and bringing up all my past indiscretions when she is reprimanding me. Just grow up. I love you, mom. But please, grow up. 

I'm scared about my "derp." I just want to get it and by over with so that I can feel like everyone else, and not a child.

I was going through a crisis this week. I was really confused, but now I am no longer confused and I feel really good about myself. It's really hard being a girl. But I feel better about myself and I know myself.

6/17/11

I finished freshman year with a 4.0.

I will be attending Northeastern University in the fall.

This makes me happy.

I still love...people but I am much better at dealing with it.

The Red Sox are doing okay atm (in this particular game). Meh.

I still need to take out the loan and sadly find a place to live.

3/15

Corinne slept over last night and it was the best girls's night ever :) We chatted  and really talked about everything. It was so lovely, we did sleep ten hours though... haha

Today was a very unproductive today, but it was the first unproductive day I've had in weeks, so that is absolutely fine. I still need to finish adding the edits onto my computer for my college essay, and I need to read LOADS for psych and ethics but I'm having a sleepover tonight so HA!

Lent

I really haven't been good about being religious lately. That's fine, but I figured might as well do something for Lent, right? So I've given up blush and lipstick and stuck to mascara and eye shadow. I really didn't wear that much makeup to begin with, so I thought this was an "easy out" and I have decided to give up soda (harder than it sounds), caffeine (aside from tea), putting butter on toast/bread etc and not go the vendies as much (like once a week). I also want to eat three times as much fruit and veggies as I did before. This is probably a very personal journey.

Today was productive

I hope I don't bore my zero followers as I reconstruct my day.
1. It was far better than yesterday, that is for sure. It was also far better than Tuesday but not as good as Monday. I finished nearly everything for transferring. The pieces have finally all locked in place and after this weekend (or so) I won't ever have to look at another common application again! How exciting is that?! I'll also miss some things. I'll miss one very important thing.
2. AH I SAW HIM TODAY. I mean we only said hi, and there are loads of complications along with it, how we perceive each other and such... I mean that is a huge factor that cannot be ignored, ever.
3. Shall see him tomorrow as I have to go to campus and work tirelessly until 2:23 and then I can go home and get ready for the MAIN EVENT of tomorrow night which is Haley's lovely birthday <3